Letting It Out

"Mistakes are always forgivable, if one has the courage to admit them." ~ Bruce Lee 


We make many mistakes in life, yet it's being honest about those mistakes which really makes the difference. It's easy for us to be honest with God about our mistakes, since we can secretly tell Him what we've done wrong, and we know that He won't judge, think or love us any less or different. The tough part is speaking about your mistakes to people. Since  we've felt judged before by our family, friends and most of the time strangers. We tend to harden up over the years, and are afraid to open up about our failures to our neighbor. We struggle all alone. Silent and hurting. For fear of what they might think or respond. We limit ourselves from receiving help!

"Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes." ~ Oscar Wilde

I've done this more times than I can remember. Over and over, I tend to revert back to my defenses. "It works" I'll tell myself, "nobody knows, and anyway, I'm sure nobody cares either!" I keep them all inside, and watch them evolve, piece by piece into massive monsters of repression and hatred. They always come out in the end. One day, when I'm not expecting it to. With all the suffering that I had to go through along the way, just to feel it explode nonetheless.

"The Lord directs the step of the Godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by hand." ~Psalm 37v23-24

Life is worth so much more than holding on to our mistakes. Our faults and failures. Speak them out. Post them online if you have to. Just get them out. Be prepared for the repercussions, because there are people who will hear of your mistake and hold it against you. Don't be afraid of your imperfections. It is your flaws that makes your life unique to YOU! You'll feel free, and the load will be lifted.  It is when we lay down our pride, our shame and speak out what we did wrong, what we are sorry for, that we begin to open up room for forgiveness and freedom to flow. Someone around might just hear about your struggle and feel relief, that they are not the only one who went through that storm. A relief that you brought, a light of hope through your courage.  It starts with us taking that risk, no matter what, and letting it out! 

Bringing Your Side

There are relationships in my life that need work, there's a lot of pain, hurt and distance that requires healing. "I've done enough!" I'll say, "I've done my bit, now they must do theirs!” is what will come out, in an attempt to reassure my choices and actions. This is me, all Caught up in my pride, with a loss of peace and direction, stubborn and selfish. Seeking reason, instead of solution!


“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” ~Revelations 3v20


There have been countless times, where God has brought His side. Extended out His hand to me when I was lost and tied up in darkness. He would try to meet me half-way, waiting for me there, only just to see if I will come. Most times I didn't, which didn't once discourage God to turn away and give up on me. What I've found in my life, is that God doesn't just wait for us at the half-way mark, He'll go all the way, His half, as well as ours. He'll walk all the way to our door and knock, in the hope of us answering. Not just wait on the road, for us to come to Him. Too many times I would wait for the person in the relationship that I would be struggling with, to meet me half-way, to put their side in. What God has taught me, is to always do more. My savior always shows up, whether I want Him to or not, He comes to my rescue. Shouldn't I do the same?


"We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces whiles regret weighs tons." ~ Author Unknown


The cost for reconciliation is always worth the struggle. I speak from experience when I say this, that you don't want to be the person saying to yourself, "I should've done things differently. If only I had tried harder.” I've been in that position in the past, and it hurts when there's nothing more that can be done. "All I wanted, was just one more day, to make things right." Unfortunately that privilege won't always be there, we need to grab onto it while it is. I urge you, and I'm speaking to myself too, that we heal that hurt, mend that relationship, and we need to do it all today. We don't know what tomorrow will bring, let's not take that chance, and wait any longer!